When I was in school, I never settled for mediocrity. I had to have the highest grades, be the most involved, etc. I just needed to be in charge. I never did anything halfway. I never settled for average.
I wanted to be a star.
I would only do things if I could be the star; or be the best there was.
A lot of that still rings true for me today. However, in life, career, and relationships, its not always so easy. You don’t get a letter grade, or a gold star, or a check mark next to each thing you need to do. You can try to rise above mediocrity by comparing yourself to others. But no matter what, there will always be people that have it better than you and those who have it worse than you. There will always be people that have more than you and those who have less than you.
I am truly learning to be happy with myself, my life, my achievements, and my belongings – instead of comparing myself to those of others.
However, if I do want to be the best, and I still need to get those “gold stars,” why not compare myself….to myself?
This is why I will run another marathon.
Yes, it’s a huge accomplishment to TRY to run a marathon and to FINISH a marathon. But for someone who is always looking for that A+ grade and that 4.0 GPA, and that pat on the back for a job well done, simply finishing a marathon (in seven hours) is not exactly the most pride-inducing feat.
I’ve convinced myself that I am proud of it. And I do proudly say that I did or completed the New York City marathon – but I never say that I ran it. I always include a caveat that I “hobbled” it because I truly hobbled through the last ten miles. Besides, I wouldn’t change the experience of it for anything, because it’s something I did with my sister.
But seven hours…I have to do better and I can do better. I’ve learned a lot from my first marathon experience. SO I am putting it out there right now.:
I will run another marathon.
And this time, I will run it. If I walk part of the way, so be it. But I will run the majority of it.